I have a Secret

But I can't tell you about it - yet

Blues Bros. Revue

I took my kids to see the Blues Bros Revue. It's a london based show and it was great. Although I'm no longer in a family full-time, I am adjusting to being a part-time daddy. It's hard.

This is not what I signed up for. I signed up for family, complete with children and happiness and great sex, and conversation. We have that in the beginning, then something goes wrong. What is that something and why do we get it? What and when does that something ruin your perfect life?

I really don't think it was my fault and she doesn't believe it's hers. Somebody did something wrong, or I wouldn't be here writing this.

I need to use my imagination, a great benifit of being a human. Everything starts with imagination. From imagination comes and idea. From the idea comes action and from action comes results and we can only hope the results are positive.

Try to look at yourself through her eyes. You may not like what you see, but you can change it for the future. Learn from your mistakes instead of taking blame for them.

Keep positive, yeah, that's what I'll do. Keep positive and move ahead.

By The Way

I can't type worth a darn. I hunt and peck, so if you see mistakes, that's why.

The First Day of My Journey

As I begin this blog, I'm sitting alone, eating dinner alone in my new duplex which is an old house built in the 1950's, not a beautiful place, certain;y not as nice as the house I lived in with my wife and two little boys. We just couldn;t get along so I moved out.

It's traumatic to have to go through this, especially when you've been together for 16-years. 16-ywars gone down the drain - and I'm 62-years old. It's not going to be easy to find someone else, although I don't look my age and I certainly don't act it.

I feel as if the entire world is coming down on me. Nothing I do is right. I have been successful at everything I did - until now. Now everything is going wrong.

I took an appraisal of myself to see what I'm doing wrong. I've been a professional comedian for 25-years. I got off the road when I had my two boys. Love trupms money anyday in my book.

My problem is this: After doing comedy for 25-years and quit, where do you go from there? I can't work at Wal-Mart, or Lowes or in a convience store. I wouldn't last five minutes.

So I decided to become a professional speaker, but so far, that hasn't worked. I have a good message, but I need so much work in the confidence area of my life. I lost my confidence. I've started smoking again, I'm 30 lbs. overweight, I've quit exercising. Basically, I've given up.

But I am not a quitter. I know I will get through this, because I BELIEVE. I believe in myself. My wife and her family think I'm stupid to keep trying to be a speaker when it's getting me nowhere. they want me get whatever job is available just to work. They don't understand it takes time, it takes practice, it takes CONFIDENCE, something I haven't been getting from them.

My mentor is Andy Andrews, but he dosen't know it. I came across his website while checking out other speakers, trying for figure out what they did to become so popular. Check out Andy's Book The Traveler's Gift.' If you're in the same place I'm in right now, it will help you.

Thomas Edison once said, "So many people don't realize how close they were to success when they just gave up and quit." I will never quit.

I'm speaking to Rotary Clubs and Kiwanis, and other civic organization for free to perfect my speech. I feel my time is just around the corner. but I've been let down so much lately.

I realize that I am where I am right now because of choices that I made. And the same level of thingking that got me where I am isn't going to get me out. Good advice, you agree?

If you're in the same place I'm in right now, stay tuned and maybe we can help each other become better people. We can create a Master Mind Group.

Until I hear from YOU, I will sign off. Have a good day and remember, NEVER GIVE UP.